Schizophrenia Newstockyjohnson, please read the following, I think it can help you, I have noticed that you talk to yourself :
Schizophrenia is a serious mental disorder in which people interpret reality abnormally. Schizophreniamay result in some combination of hallucinations, delusions, and extremely disordered thinking and behavior that impairs daily functioning, and can be disabling. People with schizophrenia require lifelong treatment.