what is the sound of Righthand clapping!Righthand, you're sounding like a very bitter little man that is frustrated by your mistakes in the market.
I suspect you are stuck in some stocks you once liked and have not yet figured out how to exit and enter / Day Trade quickly when necessary, to lock in profits and/or prevent losses.
Please, if you need a shoulder to continue to cry on, feel free to share your innermost misery with us as you have been doing, we're all here for you and wish you a very speedy recovery.