OLD FOX - I'M NOT YOUR GUYYou say you're LONG Novo?
And yet you cheer/celebrate when bad things happen - which makes you happy. Then, your posts read as though you're yelling and throwing things. I'll bet your husband/boyfriend/dog has grown tired of broken windows and dented walls that have to be refloated.
These are VERY deep emotional/psychiatric issues you have - which is not my line of work, otherwise I'd offer to help.