Quick Glance. Well, it looks like you just like being kind of an azz while hiding behind a keyboard. Here's a quick assessment from what you've shared. Your not the same age as Pandora as your still working in your industry grinding for a paycheck. It you were in your 80's working fulltime in the tech industry you would have had to made some catastrophic mistakes financially and working for basic survival not enjoyment.
You're a middle aged guy, mid forties maybe early fifties. Still grinding to get a paycheck. Your short in stature and you would probably consider yourself big boned. Medically your BMI would group you in the obese category. All good because you have been heavier since you were a kid and there is nothing wrong with that. Your choice of occupation doesn't help the situation as it's quite sedentary with not much physical activity. Your most physical activity comes from walking to the bus to and from home to work. You consider your self to be athletic and feel the need to let everyone know. You're not an expert
You have a problem with self esteem and are quite insecure. Your derogatory comments geared toward people that work with their hands or employ physical skills highlights another of your insecurities. Not even knowing basic terminology about the simplest tasks most men and women know how to do. Basic skills in an emergency. You idolize people with titles thinking they are somehow better then others. You wish you had a important title that actually meant something
You have difficulty control your emotions amd display jealousy and envy towards other successes. You feel lost in life with opportunities passing you by because as so engrossed in yourself and pity you miss simple chances daily. You are holding onto the dream so tight that you can't see that is passed. No excuses will bring it back.
Still have time left to make some changes. Question is will you?
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